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Who tells me thou art darkness?
Apr. 1st, 2013 09:43 amHappy April 1st. I don't feel very fool-y for some reason. Feel free not to read this pity party.
I got my Photojojo time capsule and all the pictures were from Costa Rica... which is where I was this time last year. I have officially been unemployed for a year.
It has been a hard year emotionally. I feel like I am not contributing to the world; and yet I don't really have any energy or ambition. I feel fairly wedged. I'm not sure who I want to be when I grow up, which at 59 is just really sad.
My fantasy self is still wishing for a tropical beach. And yet my actual self is very happy with her family and the Bay Area (except for the weather and the traffic). I so do not want a job with a commute. I don't want a job that is 40 hours a week. I can only define my "don't wants". I have no actual wants.
Looking at the jobs on offer doesn't help. They are mostly in Palo Alto or points north. They are all about "excellent time management in a fast paced environment", are looking for someone "innovative, collaborative, and energetic" and my favorite "must be able to meet the physical demands of the position".
I wish I thought buying a lottery ticket would do anything other than cost me a buck.
I got my Photojojo time capsule and all the pictures were from Costa Rica... which is where I was this time last year. I have officially been unemployed for a year.
It has been a hard year emotionally. I feel like I am not contributing to the world; and yet I don't really have any energy or ambition. I feel fairly wedged. I'm not sure who I want to be when I grow up, which at 59 is just really sad.
My fantasy self is still wishing for a tropical beach. And yet my actual self is very happy with her family and the Bay Area (except for the weather and the traffic). I so do not want a job with a commute. I don't want a job that is 40 hours a week. I can only define my "don't wants". I have no actual wants.
Looking at the jobs on offer doesn't help. They are mostly in Palo Alto or points north. They are all about "excellent time management in a fast paced environment", are looking for someone "innovative, collaborative, and energetic" and my favorite "must be able to meet the physical demands of the position".
I wish I thought buying a lottery ticket would do anything other than cost me a buck.
