At one point or another I, too, get my 'outside buttons' activated. Story of my life. While I can talk everybody's head off when I know them well, other times my shyness takes over and I just hide. That's where my camera comes in handy. And then, after I've hidden and everybody thinks that I don't want any contact, I start whining because nobody calls. LOL

And even though I know this about myself, it still hurts. And I'm sorry, this is hurting you. Fatigue just doesn't allow running from stuff, but it doesn't create it IMHO. So, treat yourself well, and then get in touch with the folks that you know love and accept ya. That way, you're on safe ground.

Hugs!