Tarot musings - 3 of swords

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Reading over my two days worth of tarot musings made me wonder. It is being true to myself to say I am burnt out? Caroline would probably say I should say, "I used to be burnt out but now I am open to possibility." Or somehow make a positive frame from which to move forward. I am not sure. Being realistic about where I am seems like a good starting point to me.

Which brings us to today's card -- three of swords

A swan is pierced by three swords. A heart hangs above.

Not a positive or happy card. Do I feel betrayed by finding myself adrift? Is there some loss of love I don't anticipate in my future? Is it just the isolation of being away from those I love? We have been doing very well at keeping in touch though.

So I am not resonating with this one. The danger of the card-a-day practice is that it can be hard to interpret after awhile. I am shuffling and thinking of future work, so perhaps I will be disappointed in work rather than love.

Last night whilst writing the first part of this I thought I might move an affirmation I worked on after David's suggestion in my April 4 Temperance post (see that comment for the Marian Weinstein original) to a main post.

Here is my current draft of it for me.

I am the perfect embodiment of my Power.
I manifest my Power in the World.
I am open to the Numinous
I hereby release all negative forms, manifestations and shadows
Perfect fulfillment is mine.
Harming none, helping as needed
For the good of this world and all worlds
In love, in truth and in spirit
I am me, vital and open to life.
So Mote It Be

Comments welcome.

Reading and wandering in Samara

Ox cart
Originally uploaded by rowanf.

I have had a lazy couple of days. Finished a couple of Vicky Delaney mysteries, read some Tor.com 2011 short stories, walked on the beach, wandered in and out it souvenir shops and sat under trees by the pool enjoying the lovely weather. Oh, if you are a scifi fan, do look up "A Vector Alphabet of Interstellar Travel" by Yoon Ha Lee on Tor.com. Really delightful.

Tonight I headed over to the Samara Language School for a 6pm tour but found it cancelled due to rain. And they had just had a huge influx of young Germans they needed to get to their host families. I took a dramatic rainy beach picture but my Flickr app hasn't been uploading for the last 24 hours or so, so who knows when it (and other recent snaps) will show up online. So nothing new to which to link. *grumble*

So at 7:15am I shall show up and be tested and know my schedule for the week. I hope those who celebrate it had a lovely Easter.